flutterbyes in my tummy

do the words "oral surgery & maxillofacial surgery" scare you? well they do me. i have never been nervous or scared about going to a dentist, but for some reason i am this time. i thought it might be because i'm going somewhere new, to a person i've never heard of or met before, but i have actually done that about 4 times before, so that's not it. and maybe it's because those words sound extra expensive, but i think most of it is because i have had really bad experiences with the upper, right side of my mouth. for some reason it doesn't numb like a typical person's does. one time, a dentist who i now hate, actually pulled my permanent tooth even though i was screaming at him that i could still feel EVERYTHING. i never went back to him, and if i could remember his name i would tell you all to avoid him, too. he worked in hyrum, that's all i remember. it was that traumatic. but even that didn't make me scared for the next time a dentist had to take away my pain. and finally, my awesome dentist, dr. goodwine, did some research and figured out what was wrong and actually numbed that section of my mouth for the very first time. i have asked him to call this new guy and explain it to him. i sure do hope it works.

i try not to be too whiny on my blog (at least i feel like i do), but this really has me feeling a little fluttery and i needed to vent, purge, relieve my brain from the pressure of thinking about it. it's sort of helped. all i know is that i am glad i've spent so many hours watching "a baby story" on tlc...i've learned some very useful breathing techniques that have helped me deal better with the stress. hopefully i'll have good news to report tomorrow. and i also hope this new guy lives up to his name....dr. brain.

***the x-ray above is not actually mine. i don't know whose it is.***